Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Something Stupid

I've decided to delete my prior posts- my vents over my husband's recent behavior. It occured to me last night that I really am truly lucky, truly blessed, to have him in my life. I still don't condone what he's put me through, but I couldn't imagine losing him either. I feel that my vents unleashed some rage that had been building up inside me, and I may have said unreasonable and scathing things about those involved.

Nobody in this world is perfect. We all make mistakes.

Goodness knows, I've made my fair share.

But marrying my husband wasn't one of them. While half watching TV/ half having a conversation with a friend last night, it dawned on me that I'm not ready for my marriage to be over. I'm willing to work through this, if my husband is.

Speaking of which- I still haven't heard from him. Tomorrow it will be 1 week since he left. I'm so scared for him, it's hard to put into words.

Anyhow ladies, I've still got some housework to do, the bathtub drain has been clogged the last few days (the shower water is draining out extremely slowly!) so I need to go shove some Draino in it and hope for the best!

Hope your week is treating you beautifully. Thank you again everyone for your kind words of support during this difficult time for me.

xxxAmber

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

I Was Only Nineteen

If you're not familiar with it,

check out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gmgwx77osw

The song originally came out in the 80s and was re-released a few years back in response to the war in Iraq, although the premise still centers around Vietnam.

It's probably one of the few songs out there that can really give me the chills =/

P.S. it's important to listen to the lyrics in this song. If you enjoy the above, the original video clip from the song's first release in 1983 (which contains actual footage from Vietnam) is here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Urtiyp-G6jY&feature=related